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2012-01-24T16:15:00.000-08:00

~~Happy Chinese New year to everyone~~

This is the first Chinese New year that I have been through after started my working life.

Well,

This is actually quite normal at first,

just feel like having some holidays and sleep or hang out,

Didn't really feel the CNY mood is coming.

But somehow the unstoppable fireworks that always happen in the night time

remind me some of the past CNY feel.

And yesterday have been to genting highlands with my family just for a walk.

Didn't really go to that place for sometime,

but yesterday heard that there's some event going on over there,

yeah and I was there.

Some photos taken by me in a rush.

Just stop by for 2-3 seconds to grab the pictures.

Btw,

Happy Chinese New Year to all the of people~~

志气

2012-01-14T03:20:00.000-08:00

人有志气固然是好，

但是目标放得太高，

只会让人有不自量力，喘不过气来的感觉~

适可而止，

第一名往往就只有一个，虽然说人们都只会记得第一名，

那就要看自己的选择，

不顾一切的去冲刺一番，

还是选择一些较普通的生活，

经一事，长一智~

I know who I am

2012-01-09T06:23:00.000-08:00

Once I felt so lost with what I am currently doing,

I don't feel right,

I thought that I was off from the right track,

Maybe as most of the people said,

sometimes, people would have a duration of being negative and sad.

But somehow, I feel fine so far,

I know I have plans,

and I always do.

Just hope that I would be fine with all my plans,

wish that everything would be ok.

Just wish me luck.

Happy 2012

2012-01-01T07:08:00.000-08:00

Happy 2012 to everyone.

Here's the first post of the year,

and also a practice on painting something after long time didn't draw.

Always wanted to draw a goldfish as I always look at it inside my dad's aquarium.

So here's it. Just some pratices.

Wish that this year would be same as what Chinese said 年年有余。

Wish that this year would be a good good year for me.

Happy New Year everyone.

2011-12-31T01:56:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone.
And here's my last post for my blog this year and the next update will be 2012 d~
Wish myself good luck and all the best~!

Also for those who following my blog.

Bye 2011 and welcome 2012.

Christmas Present

2011-12-20T06:17:00.000-08:00

OK, for this year Christmas, I wish to get these stuff.

I want a 2TB hard disc,
I want a Samsung Galaxy Note.
I want a Samsung Galaxy Tab.
I want a long holiday with salary.

I wanna go for a trip with my dear.

The Important one~

2011-12-19T07:37:00.001-08:00

常常会看到这问题，
你生命中的目标是什么？

对自己而言，我生命中的目标又是什么呢？
其实这问题很难回答，
或许人人都说，想成功，
然而，成功又是什么呢？
对你来说，怎样才算成功？
这又是一个很难回答的问题了~

家庭，爱情，与事业
虽说这是三个词汇，
但却是紧紧的牵系着对方，
你会因为你的家庭而努力去建造一番事业，
也因为有了家庭的支持而有成就~

到最后，只能说，
生命是没有完美的，
或许你会为了一些你认为对你很重要的东西而放弃你现有的，

常看见的，
要是爱你是错的，那我宁愿错一辈子~

New Showreel 2011

2011-12-17T08:29:00.000-08:00

And yeah, here's my showreel for 2011 as there's still few days left for 2011.

so just make it as a compilation of my works for this year.

Also hope that this will get me a good job soon or later.

Btw, I am quite tired now, so this is it for today.

Enjoy.~!

Missing note book...

2011-12-08T07:12:00.001-08:00

when I was screaming " where the hell is my fucking note book ? " and the next things is " a ha ~! here is the fucking note book.... "

First of December~

2011-11-30T18:28:00.000-08:00

Yeap and that's it....
November of this year have been just passed, and here come a whole new December.
Wish me luck and all the best in my career and also others.

By this December have been planning to complete some stuffs as a preparation for next year.
Yes, I am planning.
Won't have to plan so much for past few years when I was still in school.
Just wait for the christmas to come and maybe have some out going with friends.

But now won't have that much time to do so,
and I know that maybe next years for the following years would be getting more and more busy until I retire. Maybe.~
So I might just do what I can for now as well and to have sometime for the month's special days.

Wish that my vision go smooth and everything will be fine.
Although sometime life should be fill with mysterious.

As master wu gui said,
today is present, it's a gift.
tomorrow will be a mysterious.~~

All the best everyone.~

Gathering~~

2011-11-13T16:38:00.000-08:00

Gathering is still the best~!!

尊重~

2011-11-12T17:51:00.000-08:00

从前的我，在中学时曾学习理科，也对生物很有兴趣~

放过很多心血去做练习，学习，与研究~

但之后我还是选择了回到艺术界~

其实，这问题我也考虑了很久。。。

例如一般的情况，

人们去看医生，医生说他们必须吃这药，然后定时吃。

人们就会照做，因为他们不懂药物，生病后就去看医生，然后尊重医生的指示~

同样的，一些人，想到我要宣传我的作品，想找艺术家来帮个忙。

结果好好的谈了谈，就有了第一set的design.

没错每个人有自己的审美观，

是可以改给你的，

但

三番四次的更改，

结果还是要回第一个，

这不就跟看医生的情况一样吗？

没错或许你有念过几年的美术，但想想看，我们在这行找吃的，

难道程度就不如你那几年的美术水准了吗？

你看医生，你不懂药物，你会尊重医生的意见，

那，为什么你不懂美术，你又要装得一幅了不起的模样，在那装神弄鬼呢？

这岂不是在关公面前耍大刀吗？

难道说，你看得到，

但摸不到的，你就不会去尊重了吗？

那问问自己，

回想起自己的童年，是否也有着一些这类摸不到的记忆存在，

那可值钱？

现在你花的钱，是在为你孩子的记忆中添加色彩的。

不要吝啬于那短短十几年的岁月，因为那可以是让他们走得更远的动力啊~

请尊重艺术家的意见，我们也是经过一番努力而训练出与你们不同的眼睛~

too hot too furious~

2011-11-08T19:10:00.000-08:00

I am so hot now, damn, feel like I am working in the most warm CG office in my country.....
Omg, wish 2 months can pass faster, faster.... really feeling uncomfortable now.

Argh, feeling sick.
Was dragging myself to office every morning. Why....
Though at first I was so passionate with my career, but now I feel that I've changed.
Hmm, people always said environment change how people think,
and now I feel that's true.

Human can't live alone, we have our own mind set,
but once we enter a new environment, soon or later, little by little, somehow there's some influence there.
Some history in ur life stage that change u.~

I didn't give up, so I've make up my mind,
I will go to another environment.
There's always a better place and hope that I can get there soon.....
And wish that the next destination would be a better place.

And not hot.... feel like outside is even cooler then insider this bloody office....

Plan~

2011-11-05T12:06:00.000-07:00

A plan since June 2011, and it's finally be done today.

A birthday party plan.

Great day, laughters from the heart,

Happiness that given from the relationship within each friends are beautiful.

Time passed,

Somehow it still shine when we walk into each other's life.

We smile together.

Friends are awesome.

And last but not least for today, wish you have a good and unforgettable birthday.

Be happy and stay happy.

That's all I wish.

Great.

2011-11-04T00:04:00.000-07:00

Great that the next monday is a public holiday.
Can take some rest at home. Good good.

Hope that I can make my way to a university that suit my wish.
Seriously people always asking for cheap, good quality, and fast.
For now I don't mind the course take longer then others, but at least cheaper and suit my target?

Most of them which tuition fees within my budget don't really have the subject I am looking for.
In the order hand, most of them have the subject I looking for are expansive.

From this 2 statement, normally people are getting a conclusion that are the subject I looking for is expansive.
Well, not really..... UK university's tuition fees are within the range my parents still able to sponsor me. But US university is just too expansive to study there.

Well, if you follow my blog you will know I am doing arts.
There aren't much company will sponsor scholarship for students who going to further study in this area. This is reality, art ain't really bring back much benefit to them.

Hmm....

决定

2011-11-02T08:55:00.000-07:00

今天终于做了个决定，考虑了蛮久的选择，

每个选择都各有好处，

如何去决择绝对取决于个人的意愿，

回头想想，

什么是自己要的，什么是自己追求的，

对于现阶段的自己，心里真正想要的到的又是什么。

没错，我在做着的东西，

外界看起来真的不是那么吃香的东西，

但，当你了解到了是怎么一回事，或许你看到的是更多，

现实归现实，

钱是很重要，但是比起内心修养，

不同人有着不同的答案~

在选择的路上，很多人会拐弯，换方向，

没说谁对谁错，人人都有想要的生活，

取决于个人，

但是我个人觉得，

从前孔子所留下的儒家教学，

真的是希望世界成长在如此的步伐上吗？

为什么西方国家的人会那么看重儒家教学，

反而龙的传人们，却追逐于另外一些东西。

也许，我没经历过他们的情况，才得以有此看法，

但还是希望，

明天会是更好的一天...

November

2011-11-01T19:18:00.000-07:00

And ya, it's already November 2011.
2 months left for 2011 included this November.

Wish me luck for this month and have a better time before switching to a new environment.

Was wonder izzit most of the people will be late to work?
Have passed by the printing shop just now, it stated on the glass door that their weekdays working hour was starting from 10am, but I was there around 1015am, no one inside and the shop still dark.
Same to my current place, come late go back late...
Think that's the rules, or maybe it started with go back late then come late.
The main reason behind is important.

Be punctual to people so that people will be punctual to you.
Don't give people shit and expect people give u back something u want.~
Respect is important. And it always do.

Looking forward to today's lunch time.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Should I ?

2011-10-31T00:30:00.001-07:00

The rhythm of life is getting stable now,
although it's still much to learn, but have get used to my job now.
nothing much for my life after working hour,
tv, dinner, books, maybe some tutorial if i still have energy after work.

But recently have been thinking about should I stay or leave.
Reason behind wasn't because of I want something different from this stable life.
Just that if there's a better chances out there, y shouldn't take the first step to explore more.
Should be better.
Or shouldn't it be?

People saying, life is all about making decision, problems solving.
And I think it's very true.
In order to get my problem solve, I have to make a decision.
But once I have choosen the decision that I think it simply doesn't suit me.
So mostly I have choose to leave this time.
And here lead to another problem.

When ?

Yup, this is a good question I thinking of personally.
Everything happen to have its own timing.
And is this the right timing to leave now?
Or should I stay ?

Have been planning all this stuff previously,
but after a conversation with my dad and some "news" that I heard,
maybe just 1 more month later would be good...
maybe not?
here's another decision to make.
hmm~

So in the end still should I and when ?

The first one~

2011-10-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

http://forums.cgsociety.org/showthread.php?f=132&t=1014336

So ya, after been trying trying and trying.
Finally I have got my first approve from the cgsociety to post up my artwork in the gallery.
Although personally I still think that it's quite rough and definitely need more work on it.
But deadline is deadline, I entered the contest quite late and just building up slowly part by part after working hour.
Have been drop out during the process because of too tired to work on it after working hour.

But still finally I have get it done and accepted to the gallery.
Thanks CG society. This really encourage me to go on further more.

Another boring day~

2011-10-17T03:05:00.000-07:00

While I typing the title of this blog,
I understand that how lucky I am for having such a life for now,
compare to those unfortunate.
Not to say complain for this time...

Just to drop down a journal for recently update.
Have been planning whether to go or not to overseas to further my studies.
Universities that I wish to go were out of my budget,
those that I might be able to afford were not having clear description on the courses.
Scare that I wasted my time and money on something I already know and yet not what I want.
In the end people still say that, do your research...
I knew that, just that currently not in the mood.

Sometimes we have plans,
but we just wish that there're sometimes that we can be blank and look at the sky.....
Maybe, or might be thinking of doing something else rather then just sitting in office.
But no choice people have to work,
since we were still kids, we have plenty of time to waste,
but now, what I have for my own stuff is just the few hours after work hours.

Really wish to have more time for what I planning to do for myself.
for my portfolio,
and for my future.

As people said,
working life is boring,
just enjoy your work.
I love to work in my carreer,
perhaps the other place.

Other workstyle~

A bad October~

2011-10-11T19:22:00.000-07:00

Was having a really bad starting for my October this year,
At first I feel ok when I fall sick and need to take mc~
I can just have some rest at home...

Who knows on the second day of this week,
I was having an appointment with a US college representative,
First was the location we met up was so so so not easy to find.
Second was, on the way to the destination, since I wasn't familiar with the roads,
then when I was browsing through the map I drawn, don't know why that I will release my brake and my car move forward just abit.
Damn it, just a bit only. Then it kissed the front car's bumper.
And it lead to so many mafan things happen later.

And today is the third day for this week,
which is the next day,
I have applied leave from my job 2 days,
So I don't plan to take another day leave, since I got my job to be done.
But still the case have to be settle as soon as possible.
Damn the driver inside the car infront of me yesterday,
Just a little bit stretches there, and he said wanted to exchange the whole bumper.
Damn him, curse him to the worst....

I already apologize at the first place and said I will pay for the repair,
but damn him just a little bit of stretches he wanted to change the whole new bumper......
I wonder what's wrong with him, if his mum was a little bit older then will he dumb his mum away?
and exchange a new, pretty, young, sexy one?
oh my god~

I ain't gonna to be so good this time to pay that much like previous case I met,
happy or not,
I will just pay back what I affort to,
if not, go settle with the third party.....
damn...

Day by day~

2011-09-26T19:23:00.000-07:00

Today I ain't gonna complain about anything,
have been so tired for working recently.
Not that kind of tired as in after exercise,
but kinda more like mentally tired.

Thought that after enter the industry should be learning more stuff then in the college,
however all the mess up pipeline, unproductive method of doing work really burn out my passion.
Was thinking about this recently,
Am I being an artist now? Am I doing art now?
Or I just go to office like a robot day by day just to get pay and live my life.

I know I don't have the right to blame anyone as my current situation wasn't that bad.
But seriously I wish I could involve in this production line for the next ten years in my future.
I just hope that it will become a better place to work at.
Somehow, it just needed sometime to let art being respect by others in my country.

Please listen to an artist's advise if you are not sure with what you want.
Without a clear vision you will just let the artist double up their work until midnight and shorten their life.

pissed off.

2011-09-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

Sometime i seriously think that my blog is opened meant to scold people,

but last time i wasn't like that, even if i am damn pissed off i won't like scolding people here.

But this time i not gonna be silent,

not everytime the one who pay the money is the boss and whatever he/she say is correct,

don't think that u pay this amount of money consider u r the one who always in charge in all stuff.

Things changes when u make people feel pissed off,

I always believe in pain and gain, you gain that much that you cross the line,

someday u gonna pay for it... seriously...

Fine I will just make some changes for your work until u are satisfy, but at the same time,

Somehow I believe the feeling i felt will reach u and u gonna feel what i feel for now.

And there's no next time dy since i knew who u r and how's ur personality during this job.

In the end, you just make me feel you are some kind of cheap stuff that your personality just have that kind of value....

nowonder sometime you talk big infront of other people but the truth is the other way round.

Don't think that alone you can cover the truth how u treat ur staff,

even you are the boss, people will tell.

Even not by mouth... you will face the action later on....

Here by i wish u luck....

bad luck for u ....

damn it

2011-09-14T06:57:00.000-07:00

满肚子气，然后再吃了一餐很饱的晚餐~

真的很气。。。。。

现在很辛苦。。。

shit u the endless job.... pay one time but hold the job and keep change for months....

damn u....... curse u......

Endless job.~

2011-09-12T09:28:00.000-07:00

I am so tired now and still working on a "neverending" job....

OMG~!!

The purpose of doing this job other then learning some better skill,

the only reason is just to get it done and collect money back....

but it's brilliant that they do things in this way,

they have thought that we are their employee d,

OMG~! please la..... at least be a bit "fair" to others,

I know how u pay ur employee,

it's still good to maintain this relationship with u....

but it's just somehow make me feel this is a bit too over.....

haiz, feel disappointed d......

I am so tired now....

Can I sleep ?

Emotional~

2011-09-04T20:53:00.000-07:00

I missed last week,
I missed the 3 days holidays middle of a week.~
but it's all past....

I am very emotional now,
I want to rest more, not that I am lazy but since the 3 days of holidays I have been busy on something else.
Hmm, didn't really have much rest.
So I really miss it....
Am I really suitable to be a freelancer instead of go to office on time and work there ?
hmm, well I did know about the pros and cons about becoming a freelancer,
but somehow I did enjoy it sometimes.
It's quite bored to go to office like a primary school student...
at least so far this is what I think about for my current situation.

Keep telling myself to be more active and self-study at night.
But this doesn't apply when I reach office in the morning.
So I guess is it a good time to make changes?
maybe give myself another chance to switch to a new environment ?

Seriously I believe that sometime instead using brain to calculate all the possibility,
we should follow what our heart told us....
Should I stay if I can make the decision again.... ?

what should I do next.....

I want holidays ~!!!

2011-08-25T19:21:00.000-07:00

ARghh`!!!!
I am so tired of works,
day by day, night by night,
have to work in front of my computers...
so tired~!!!

I want holidays ~!!!
I want holidays ~!!!
I want holidays ~!!!
I want holidays ~!!!
I want holidays ~!!!~!!

The Great Wisdom~~

2011-08-20T08:37:00.001-07:00

天下武功都有利与弊，

当人学习与知道越多时，有时候面对问题时反而会无从下手....

太多的选择其实并不是选择，

眼见的未必是事实~

这世界上的人们太有创意了~

I will survive~!

2011-08-05T02:21:00.000-07:00

Working life is just like playing monopoly game,
boss hire you to work and pay u each month,
then u have to pay ur parking fees,
daily meals, water bill, electric bill etc~

after paying all that you will found that you left not much money.
and this is what happen to most of the people,
struggling in the "hardcore" lifestyle we have now at this moment.

Have no choice but work for ur life,
and I will survive~!

Road in my country is a disaster~!

2011-08-03T18:46:00.000-07:00

I can say that
Road in my country is a disaster~!

I am so frustrated now since I have been driving for around 2 hours plus to reach my work place.
Well, this usually doesn't happen to me.
But just when I missed a small separated road which were covered by tree from my point of view,
And ta da~!

I have entered a no-U turn highway....
Sometimes i do really feel like jogging is more fun then driving on the wrong road without any sign of U-turn.

Maybe this happen to our life sometimes.
You might find out that you did something very wrong,
but you just have to continue since you don't have a choice.
And yet people say, you always have a choice,
so what's my choice then when there isn't a choice for me....
ARgh~!!

I can only write this down on my long-outdated blog after I am one of the earliest reach office guy.

And roar~!!!!!

I Love Orchestra

2011-08-02T19:07:00.000-07:00

I love

Orchestra~!

Listening to these music during working hours is somehow quite enjoying~!

I believe I will be fine

2011-06-24T09:03:00.000-07:00

I am really upset and tired today and I believe I will be fine.
I tot this month I will be happy enough since my birthday is in this month.
But well, I didn't expect much about many will celebrate with me,
but this month had few incidences that drive me crazy.

I failed in doing something I like,
I can't contact a person when it's so urgent,
I haven't heard the good news that I wish to happen,

and today I using my credit card to purchase 2 tickets from the e-payment,
until my account being locked up.
SHIT~!
what is going on now....
i am so angry and sort of scolding bad words d...........

hey man, this is my month, although there're any few more days,
but just give me some luck k? common~!!

beauty of breaking

2011-06-11T20:25:00.001-07:00

History~

2011-05-11T08:57:00.001-07:00

Review back to those that I have posted in past few years,
didn't remember that I have already posted that amount of articles / stories about my life or my feeling.

At first having a blog was fun since everyone have that,
and I started this when I am still in collage,
morning we can meet each other in collage,
night we can go and visit each other's blog and read about the other's feelings.

It's quite a good place to join up all the connectivity. Maybe will bring some of the friends closer.
However now everyone is going to facebook, with a quick post like : I am hungry now....
I don't think that actually review much of the inner feeling that being processed and write it out.
Just some sentences that tell about current situation and hope that it will get some "like".
This is quite similiar with our life,
when things getting more and more convenient, we will be more and more lazy.
Not saying that it's not good to have things more convenient,
but somehow I don't really like that just posting up "I am hungry..." and show all the people.
Maybe when I am in a good mood or I am free, I will just reply "why don't you just get urself something to eat..."
hmm~

And this also causes most of the link from my blog have been deactivate~
ya, most of it weren't link to the correct place.
So I guess when I am going to give up too....
Will I ?

Theory of looking

2011-05-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

Hmm, have been no water supply for 2 days....
I have no water to bathe last night and what I can do is just enjoy the water drops bathe for around 1 hours ++.
Same goes to this morning before going to work.
It's really driving me crazy when I have to rush all the way just to take a bathe before work, and I saw that my car that I just washed during the weekend was having some dirty water stain on the left mirror really make me became more angry.
Well the stories never end like that,
once I started complain, there aren't just so little stuff happened.
The third was, after I taking my water drops bathe and have to rush to work,
I still didn't forgot to get myself 2 apples for teatime during work.
However, since I didn't have my own "private" tupperware, I just grab whatever I can to keep my apple slices. For today I picked a cute blue colour star shape tupperware. I think that it's quite cool.
But for the first 90 degree junction just right in front of my housing area,
I got my tupperware fall from my passanger seat.
And of course the "cool" tupperware opened and some of the apple slices fall out.

I feel so blank for such a wonderful morning after all these stupid things happened to me.
I am in a rush and I get myself apple, yet I didn't manage to put them into my mouth.
....

I thought that I am so lucky to get my works done on time and able to go home earlier today,
but it's still the same because i didn't get more time to rest,
thanks to the stupid "people in charge" for not settle the water supply problem and I have to drive to my gf house to bathe.

Hmm.....
Great.

New lesson

2011-05-07T18:29:00.001-07:00

要做就要赢~
没赢的话，做来做什么？
尽管只有一个第一名~

我没事~

2011-05-06T09:59:00.000-07:00

如今天的标题所写，我没事，读着今天的文章时，别担心，我只想说讨论下这话题~

各位生活上的前辈或后辈，
很想说，
对于现在的社会，你们有何看法呢？
是很不错的城市，还是已经到了道德腐败的地步呢？

从前，有位名叫孔子的圣人，他站了出来，在当时所谓混乱的时代，
他开始了儒家教学，教育人们何谓做人的道理，
在华文的教学中，有着很多道理的书籍与文章，
例如三字经之类的~
这些东西，被创造的目的是为何呢？
孔子站出来的目的是为何呢？

是为了让以后人们的修养得以升华到另一个境界吗？
为了创造更好的未来？

那，现在的社会，是否又是孔子想看到的呢？

没错，船能渡洲，亦能复洲（记得类似有句这样的名句）
凡事都有两面，

念书也是，
人们努力地念书，求取知识，从中学习做人的道理，
但却因为有了知识，制造武器，发动战争，

武器能保护自己，但也能伤害别人，

那念书是好，还是坏？
孔子所说的未来是否就是如今的社会？

现在，又有谁站出来说话呢？
政治人物？
公说公有理，婆说婆有理~？

p/s : 要是有什么文法错误，别怪我，毕业很久了，要是电脑没拼音，或许会有很多错别字~

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A Chinese Ghost Story

2011-05-01T16:43:00.000-07:00

Doing a speed painting after watching the movie,
quite nice actually. Well, after all it's just a movie that recreated after so many years since the previous version.
But I still like it~ !

Wishes~

2011-04-27T16:43:00.000-07:00

ARGH~! Have been hearing rumous about this and that will happen~
but not to confirm yet what should be done~
and hope that things just happen in the way I wish it will be look like~

ARGHHHH~!!

阶段~

2011-04-24T06:33:00.000-07:00

如今，我又在哪个阶段了呢？

回想起还是小孩时，在疼我的公公身边打转~真的很开心~
记得公公那慈祥的脸，带点帅气，不禁让现在的我感觉非常的安慰，
我很怀念你啊，公公~如今我已经长大成人了~你有在看着我吗？
还记得小时候，我坐在您的大腿上，感觉到，您的肌肉开始松弛了~但却感觉很温暖~
我问过，为什么您的手，会有很多青根。。。。
如今，一样的，我又很多问题想问您啊~

长大了，面对着许多莫名其妙的压力，
我承受得到，但我开始想说，人生到底是怎么一回事，
我好想知道啊~
努力追求着所谓的成就，
那对您而言，我就是您的成就吗？

那我的成就，是你所看到的我吗？
不断的追求进步，为了更好的生活，
到最后，为的是什么？

公公，哪怕有天我能再一次的陪在你身边，
我会好好的聆听你的故事的~~

累~

2011-04-23T07:39:00.000-07:00

梦醒时分~
只感觉到有些累~
工作，虽说是习惯就好，公司的气氛也能被调和~
但自身的身体，确实是需要一段时间来适应~
星期六，没上班，睡了午觉依然是累~

现今的社会，或许也真的是大幅度的改变了~
从前听说所谓在街边摆档的很辛苦~
但如今，街边摆的档口，是一摊又一摊啊~

Actually~

2011-04-20T06:56:00.000-07:00

其实，某程度上，我是很想回到过去，
好想再一次加入那么强的组合~
能做到人人对他们的评语都是比好更好的，
的确不容易，
不禁让我觉得，曾经是队伍里的一员是骄傲的~

Things that we looking for

2011-04-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

Well, to make a quick title for today's blogging stuff I would like to say "money",
Yes, no matter what are you looking for you can't go detach with the "money",
why would I said so,

Examples :
~ If you just wish to have a healthy life, I don't think it's possible to live until 100 years old without always consult a doctor nowadays.

~ If you just wish to have a better life that have a least a small house and car, I don't think it's easy to get both of them nowadays since population is getting more and more and yet our land is getting lesser and lesser.

~ If you just wish to have some good time with your dear or darling in a beautiful nature outdoor, I don't think most of the outdoor that have nice sunset or nice scenery weren't being turn into a hot spot for tourist.

~ If you just want to live poor, well I think you must at least once go rich only you can realise that poor isn't easy to live with.

So, now we work,
we work for money,
we looking for money,
no matter what's your aim in your life,

getting marry and build a small warming house,
or setup your own business in your dream career,

First You Gonna Have ENOUGH MONEY~!

Foolish

2011-04-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

This is so unfair when there're rules saying that "
you can't post something which is your first artwork and written there, here's my first try on bla bla bla method and hope you guys like it"
and yet people still doing it and get their artwork to be exposed,
and somehow I don't think the standard is there yet, so stupid, so unfair.
And yet mine was being rejected for sort of the reason of the level is not enough,
What the hell,
Doesn't this is so unfair....
Somemore being said that our forum is consider one of the top or the best artforum among the others.
Damn, it's so unfair.... I am so angry about it....
It's not say that I am too ego on my own work but to judge by heart,
seriously I don't like that the one I just saw is enough qualify yet,
for go over the rules and posted the "first tried" artwork.

It give me a feeling of you are judging my artwork based on my nationality,
this is soooooo unfair.

Faith and Fate

2011-04-11T23:25:00.000-07:00

Seriously I don't really agree with what the animated film named Tinker Bell,
Well she was born and gave the talent as a tinker,
But she was so interested to do other jobs as in she wasn't that good in,
no matter how hard she try, she just can't do it,
well the ending quite good was that she admit that she can do something with her given talent and work out something......

Isn't it sometimes people always say that you must work hard to achieve something,
when you work on it and you will get what you want in the end,
then how's this theory apply on tinker bell?
She work for it but she didn't get the other talent.

isn't it meant that if those who being born without much art sense can't be an artist,
no matter how hard they work for it ?
Or someone who is born with a skill in doing technical stuff can't be a good artist other than just doing something complicated ?

So what's the conclusion behind?
Is it the answer is
When you work hard on your weakness then you can get something you want,
Or it should be
Know your strength and go for it ?

What if I know my strength but I just want to be better in other area that I couldn't achieve even after I have work for it ?

到底该相信天生我材必有用，不要去勉强一些做不到的事，
还是说铁杵磨成针，只要努力就能成功？

error

2011-04-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

what happen to my blog as when I type and press enter it either won't go to the second line or it go 2 lines below~

Empty blog

2011-04-11T05:20:00.000-07:00

there're so many links that from my blog to others were no more working,

as I visit them quite often and day by day I just can't go in anymore,

As I said before, blog is like somekind of trend,

just like friendster and icq previously,

icq have been replace by msn,

and friendster have been replace by facebook,

won't it be one day we will be replace by computers?

there're so many movie and films even comic books have already bring out this idea,

but yet based on what we need and what we going to approach,

we continue to experiment and produced high tech stuff.

Human is quite interesting as they were born purely and start learning all the stuff day by day,

and someday someone might be the best of the best,

but how about others?

People always talking about stories that around the hero,

how about the others ?

There aren't many artist that can achieve such high standard compare to those who are come from different background and be trained since young,

so when the hero were standing so high on the hills,

how about the others?

成长

2011-04-10T09:06:00.000-07:00

人生到底是为何？现在的我，过得比很多人好，我也没再要求着什么了。。。开始步入社会工作，有时我会告诉自己说，拼命的去工作吧，你的时代来了，好好的去用自己的青春绘画吧~ 然而，工作的生活却是让人感觉到如此的乏味~ 能做的又是什么呢？看见很久没联络的朋友在远方学习的照片，心中不禁有些辛酸的感觉，想说，啊~有钱真好，又或许是说，可能太久没见，我也不是昔日的我，何况是别人呢~也许他们已经不再是以往的他们了~ 看着看着，听着日文歌，韩文歌，英文歌，不禁让我更在自己那小小的房内创造着那幻想空间~ 好想像他们一样，可以到处去游荡，看看我们这美丽的世界，是否依然像电视或书中的情景~ 此刻的我，真的好想好想去到一个下着雪的夜晚，带着我的另一半，两人衣穿的厚厚的，但脸上却带着最真实的笑容，何谓人生，人生又是何物~ 我们努力的去学习，工作赚钱，到最后，还不是想说为了在这世界上找到自己的另一半，过得大家都开心的生活吗？但这又谈何容易呢？开心，可以是一件很简单的事，也可以是一件很复杂的事，世上有太多矛盾的道理，也有太多的灰色地带，人是感情动物还真是奇妙的~ 能活着每一天就是最好了的~ 现在的我很好~ 不去羡慕，不去埋怨，此刻的开心就是珍贵的回忆了~

Goddess of Earth

2011-04-10T04:56:00.000-07:00

Another piece of new artwork recently,

was finish this within a week~

A concept that design by myself,

was to create a goddess that protect the earth always.

Protecting the people from destroying the earth and balance up the nature.

Hope you guys will like it~!

Corrections

2011-04-06T08:18:00.001-07:00

Don't hate to do corrections, because corrections and refines always make better result, You aren't perfect yet so you get comments, Once there aren't any comments for you, Means there're no more improvement for you.

强者永远是孤单的，

那你选择成为孤单的强者，或是拥有许多朋友与同伴的平民呢？

I will always remember this told by my lecturer

Chee Seng.

Pan Reel

2011-04-03T17:14:00.000-07:00

So here's the reel of the model.
Well, since it's being compressed so the quality more or less have been dropped.
If you wish to watch a clearer version,
here's another link :

http://www.vimeo.com/21684604

wish you guys will like it and enjoy~!

My entry for challenge by Evolve CG

2011-04-03T08:44:00.000-07:00

Hi Guys~!

It've been a while since my last update,

well, I guess it's just a while,

and now here's another new artwork from me

for the Heroes and Legends Challenge contest presented by Evolve CG.

Seriously I think that this piece of artworks is kinda like,

it made me feel that I am improving.

From the previous fishman,

This piece of artwork gave me more impact in the way of happiness for finishing it.

So be happy and stay tune for the reel.

Will share it in the next update.

The full texture map

Ambient and normal map

Some of the closeup and weapon.

Modeled by me, HeeChung.

Concept by my dear, Stephanie Kok.

Life's wonderful~

2011-03-31T09:39:00.000-07:00

This is what I have for lunch few weeks ago~

Totally home-made extra deluxe set lunch.

With my dear,

The process of cooking getting more fun,

although this isn't the first time we stand in the kitchen together and cook something,

This time we got sotong ball,

and also fish and chip,

and also apple juice.

Hehe, Life is wonderful isn't it?

When you get some time out of the busy life

to have lunch with the person you love,

and the time we cook together~

Here's my another wonderful life stuff,

won in the battle with Ochu in ff13 with just a 7 seconds battle duration.

OMG~!

Once again.~

2011-03-30T07:25:00.000-07:00

And ya,
just like what's the title.
Once again I am being hired.
>.<"

Should be back to a working life and working life should be always sounded like an endless things to do. Hmm~
well, at least have to get myself feed and learn something new~

Good Luck to me again~

2011-03-29T18:09:00.000-07:00

I wish to win at least a prize in the Evolve CG legends contest 2011 a~!!!
Not that at least a prize, I want the first prize and maybe at least the second prize.
People say that when you want something and you ask for it.
after you ask for it, you work for it.
after you work for it, you wait for the respond.
And now I have already ask for it,
And I have already finish to work on my contest entry.
And now I shall wait for the respond.

Please Please PLEASE~!

Choices equal to Hardness.

2011-03-24T17:48:00.001-07:00

People always said that life is so tough when you get no choices and have to do it that way,
but actually when choices given, it's also quite a hard time to make a decision as we know that a decision can make our life so different.
our life is just like a maze that we start at the same point,
but we entered the different entrence to join different background of family,
then each decision we made lead us to stand on the current path of our life.

My friend always asked me that why I used to study science and have interest in science subjects too will go and take a course in art.
Well, I can just say that basicly I have more interest in doing art....
that's a tough decision that lead me to meet new artist friend,
and starting walk away from those old friendship as we stepped in different career.

Earth have meet climax changes,
and yet human life face changes too.
Have read a book that mention about there're no forever friendship,
normally there will be a good and pure friendship in your primary school time,
a more mature friendship in your secondary school,
a kind of friendship between benefit and happiness when you're in your collage or uni time,
and friendship builded up with fake and real in the industry when you started to work.

As we grow up, we have to face this,
So making a decision isn't that easy compare to sometime things have been decided...
Well, this is very subjective and depend on situation.
Life always have been so subjective,
even an 4 choices question normally isn't ended up with just 4 choices.

There's always a statement "if" in our life same as what people use to build up the computer script.

Pray

2011-03-23T05:25:00.000-07:00

Pray Pray Pray, Swear that I never play play play next time~!!
Pray to the god~!

Love Story

2011-03-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

Listening to song at youtube recently.
And I didn't notice that words can be use in song to reach a such beauty level.
Telling a story with a song that have graceful words,
By listening to the song and it let you to create your own world.
The power of words is so amazing.

Beh tahan

2011-03-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

Hmm, sometimes,
I really beh tahan that people said that they don't like something and yet they keep on doing that....
They don't like people to be hardsell and yet they are so hardselling in the way they talking.
Feel like so bored when talking to them.

But no choice,
sometimes these kind of people need to be entertain under some situation.
Hmm, it's kind of bored.

Please don't keep telling that how good you are when I have eye to see it by my own.
Damn u.
Shit u.
It's not that everyone will buy your idea that you keep promoting yourself make people feel better.
It make me feel more wat dat lur.....
Pui~!

I got the 10k stars~!

2011-03-20T05:36:00.000-07:00

I See The Light

2011-03-18T19:15:00.000-07:00

When can I see the light ~!?
When are you going to release your dvd with the making~!

Life is easy and life is hard

2011-03-17T05:00:00.000-07:00

Today, I feel life is easy when I am so enjoying in doing something people think is hard.
And yet by the time after my lunch I found that life is so hard to do something i don't really like and yet people say it's easier.

And that made me come out of this conclusion that I thought I have already knew it for long time ago.
Which is life is easy and happy when you doing something you enjoy it however people think it's hard.
In the opposite which is life could be so hard when you must do something you don't like.
It's a must.... to get a job, to get youself paid and buy some food.

Life could be a heaven and yet it could be a hell.
I wonder when can I back to the heaven I used to be.
Although it isn't that hard now but if I continue to do the things I don't like for the next 3 to 5 years....
I would probably scream on the mountain everynight of my day.

The 21th century phenomena

2011-03-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

A breathtaking news was release few days ago, about the tsunami and earthquake that hits Japan. This really shock me and I kinda feel sad about what happen to them.
Maybe it's because of I have been to there recently.
I really don't hope that such a nice place will be destroy by the natural disaster.
Hope that they will be fine and recover as soon as possible.
And also my japan family will be fine over there.
So far from what i know is that their situation is still under control but just very very difficult time. I wonder what had happen to our world and our earth.
Slowly it have given out more and more signal to us about it's situation.
What i think is just that if we didn't make changes and take action about this issue,
we are going to be the next to face this problem.
We ain't safe anymore since we are on the same planet.
There're no place which is safe.

However,
today when I going class,
I feel so sad about what I have met.
I was going to my teacher's house for my japanese class.
And when I passed by the guard house,
the guard come over and ask where I going to or visit which unit.
It's not the first time I going into the area,
but I know that it's their job to keep the resident there safe.
So, I answer them as usual,
But something special happened today,
one of the guard asked me,

"Hey, itulah rumah Melayu, apahal lu pergi ke rumah Melayu? "
I was so shock when I heard this,
with not so patient to answer his stupid question, I said that
"Itu rumah cikgu saya, apakah masalah saya tak boleh jemput ke rumah cikgu saya? "
Then his ultimately stupid answer make me feel so sad,
"Oh, kerana lu macam cina ma....."
WTH~!
SAYA CINA TAPI SAYA TAK BOLEH ADA CIKGU YANG MELAYU KA?
what's wrong with you.....
here's Malaysia, and don't you know that there are banyak differnt kaum ka ?
lol...

people over japan is having difficult time, and we have such a stupid guard to look over our living area safety.
what happen if tsunami reach us,
i think we will all habis~~

i am busy

2011-03-08T06:08:00.000-08:00

其实，回想起来，我的生活一直都是被许多的东西塞得满满的~
毕业之后，放假了一个月吧~
期间很想找份工，
想工作了。

但，
现在的我很想告诉学生们，
好好珍惜你们有的时间吧。
或许你们会说，哎哟，我攻课很多，要念书，要这要那。。
但是，可以告诉你们，学生时期，再怎么努力，也不过是自己逼自己去做而已，
偶尔吃了午餐，还能来个三十分钟的休息。
工作后，
有个一小时的午餐时间，
还真要谢天谢地呢。。。。。

我的生活，
要是有个时间表，我会把塞车时间也写下去呢~
其实到最后，
人们常说，你知道你自己要的是什么吗？
我知道啊。。。
我要的，只不过是有辆车，代步嘛。。。
有间房子，总要的啊。。。
一天三餐温饱。。。衣食住行，华人嘛~
最后的，能给个不错的生活给家人，妻子，孩子。。。
这是我的答案，
那我现在的生活，排得满满的，
有错吗？不过是努力的为未来铺路而已。。。。
比别人学习多一些，那应该也比别人的未来有保障些。。。
别告诉我你会只让你的孩子学习一项他喜欢的东西而已。。

现在的孩子，
从电台广告上也能听到，
早上上学，
下午补习，
傍晚游泳，
晚上练琴，

这只不过是周日的生活而已哦。。。
人间，是个乐园，
是个不断循环的痛苦地方，
还是一个锻炼自己信念的地方呢？

SeaDragon Rider Demoreel.

2011-03-07T06:47:00.001-08:00

Work done~

2011-03-04T16:56:00.000-08:00

This is my entry for TOASCA 2011.

Wish that this time able to get the first price.

ARGH~!

The last entry I can submit for TOASCA a~!

iFeel~

2011-03-02T08:33:00.000-08:00

if i am not mistaken, there're a female magazine named ifeel.
I didn't have any attendtion to the name until I am thinking to write today's blog.
Once, I started his blog,
that time people around me were start to blogging,
like everyday,
morning we meet each other,
at night we read each other blog,
we seem linked,
but half way through,
Facebook came in,
people switch to there,
All of the blog started to be dump aside.
Included mine, we always say that it's hard to find something to blog,
however we are so active on the other side,
just posting something simple and short.
And yet there're lots of people will reply you even just like your status.

But now, after work,
ya,
I Feel,
that blogging is kinda like having more meaning then just posting a sentence at facebook.
To write something reveal what you feel,
I think that just a sentence isn't really tell much,
unless people with good knowledge on telling story with words.

Well, animation 12 principles.
And it also teaches about KISS ( keep it short and simple )
but somehow, blogging should be a place is better to type as it's something more like a note book or journal.
It give you space to have your own design templet.
this is what i feel about the 2 websites.

Does the magazine named ifeel,
come from this kind of personal feeling also ?
a magazine that let you feel something.

Grow Up

2011-03-01T07:19:00.000-08:00

People always said that,
It's much more easier to grow up when you are in the stage of work.
Well, after working for 2 weeks, I am very agree on that now.
During the working time, sometimes what's in your mind isn't just thinking about like how to complete you work on time.
Working isn't that easy stuff for those who just go for it,
when you feel that it's very tough and you feel like ran away from it,
but you can't,
and you will think about what if the rest of my life to be like that, need to be in office on time and can't leave even the working hours has over.
Don't think about 10 or 20 years when you can't stand for 3 to 5 years for working life.

Well, now what I am learning actually not just the skill to help me survive in my career,
but it's the daily energy and the attitude to help me stand strong in my life.
Have to keep encourage myself when I face difficulties in my job,
mummy isn't always be at yourside.
This is what I told myself now.

Stay strong and stay focus.
Although I do hope money fall from sky and I no need to work. haha~~

Fireworks~

2011-02-27T05:49:00.000-08:00

Like to listen to this song not only for the rhythm of the song also also the lyrics.
Besides, the music video is also quite nice to watch. The shooting was nice.
I guess this is what artist always say that it's not about the theory,
it's all about to letting those who are not artist to feel what we feel behind through the visual we build up.
It's all about the feeling.

new works~!

2011-02-26T17:05:00.000-08:00

some of the works that i done recently.. just some practice for myself....

be patient, more will be uploaded soon~

Good Morning~

2011-02-26T16:59:00.000-08:00

A very good morning that i could wake up at anytime i want for this weekend....
it have been so nice to have a sunday which i have nothing much to do and force me to wake up early...
now only i realise that sleep could be hard to earn during work time,
but during student time, I was always look for some HK or JP drama to watch until midnight...
I guess this could be the different i notice ~

And i wish that i can just have more time to explo on different things and learning new stuff~
need some time for myself on doing something i like instead of keep doing this keep doing that...
Somehow when a people's life is full of activities or work or class,
Time for ownself can be considered as the time you sleep, bathe, sitting in the toilet...
That's why sometimes people can bathe for 2 hours in the batheroom -.-

生活上的一点安慰

2011-02-23T06:29:00.000-08:00

繁忙的工作后，回到家，

感觉到，

世界上有着太多矛盾的道理，

然而，

让我感觉到开心的，

就是这小小的安慰~

那么努力的工作，

到最后，

还不只是为了能有个温暖的小康之家~

And yes~!

2011-02-22T07:35:00.001-08:00

Finally~ i have changed my blog-layout~
even thought it's a preset.... but somehow preset always make sense and better....
don't have time to explo on the own layout background and don't even have time to create a nice background for it....
haiz~

well, as you know from the previous update from my blog...
have been busy on finding jobs.
and yeah~ currently was under a freelancer base contract job...
it's fun
but it's tiring~
i wish i could have more time to do my own stuff now...
and i can understand why lecturers always say that do what u like when you still studying.
it's meaningful~!
So STudents~!
Just do it~!

Well, I am quite happy with my current life now~ though was not doing much animation or cartoony stuff~
but it's a great learning process....actually i can feel how people was doing a feature film now...
cos it's something very similiar....
hmm~!
I guess i should really work hard and know more about this field~!

updates~

2011-02-17T07:10:00.000-08:00

Some little updates here for my blog....
Hmmm, should start at the big changes recently ~
which is i got a job a VHQ post and was helping in there~
being a part of the team is just nice and feel good~
although it's like so different from where i have been used to,
people around were like new friends and you didn't know what's their personality...
and all u can is just go and know them from zero~
i guess this is where the fun part coming on ~

Looking at different projects that the studio taking in and working on is just too interesting for me....as a newbie~ and i feel kinda proud to sit beside them to watching the project carry on.
didn't know that the actual flow was like that in the industry~
hmm, guess i should work and work more to gain more experiences~!
who know that few years later i should be working on my own project~
hahaha~
and just wish that i could have more and more time,
now i realise that actually time isn't that much for those who work...
and well, somehow i feel actually one day is quite long when you are waiting for something happen. And days of waiting is actually killing people's petient... and feel so crazy...
Hope that what I worry won't happen and hope the things just happen like what i have been want it to be...

Hmm, just some little updates here...
so good nite and have a nice working period for me~!

Poster

2011-02-07T20:29:00.000-08:00

Here's the poster for the animation.

Have been changed here and there from the first one until the current one you looking at.

But still glad that it's being done now.

Suddenly feel so empty after working day night for the project and now it's done. -.-

what to do next.....

Finally~!

2011-02-07T15:37:00.001-08:00

Oh my god~!
Finally it's being uploaded~!
After days by days, nights by nights i have sit in front of the computer from morning till midnight just to upload this......
Finally youtube have given me a chance to release this to the public~!
argh~!

Ladies and Gentlemen, Here's it,
Pink Prism Team Presented,

Hope you guys will like it and enjoy~!

The rest of my life~

2011-01-31T17:23:00.000-08:00

Was looking for jobs everywhere now,
and it seem like people said getting a job in a bigger company is much more better for your future..
and this make me wonder, what's the better that they mention ?
izzit getting more income so that you can have a sport car,
izzit getting more income so that you can have a big house,
or izzit working 2 days in a week that can earn more than those who work 7 days in a week?

People usually saying that industry is so different from what you learn in your school,
but what i feel that is actually if you are well prepare before you enter the industry,
the gap isn't that much different.
Learning is about how much efforts you've put in but not about how old are you or what's the education you can get.
Things are all around us and we are living in a world that is full of technology devices.
People get to know so much things from the internet and appear to have so many young talents all around the world.
The "big company" that people always thought that they want to be in was also hiring those who are good from all over the world..

So, to take the first steps into the industry,
and i wonder what will happen in the rest of my life,
will it be good?
it's very much depends on what you have choose now isn't it ?
just like how much effort that you have put on in your college life and made what you are today.

passing through~

2011-01-28T15:16:00.000-08:00

Have a great gathering with some of the old friends since we have been going to different lines for study or job after the time once we used to sit beside each other and talking throughout the whole day~

Although still considered not much of the friends have attended the gathering but still feel great to see them.... they are just so-like yesterday....still able to have topics for chit chat with each other....

But some of the best friend once we used to be,
have been changed alot between the relationship,
well, nothing to be so sad about, since the friendship is still there,
but it seem so different already,
life is about passing through the life of another, isn't it ?
you cross mine, and i cross yours. And we usually said that thanks for you been a part of my life during farewell or something else.~

As some people said, you don't need alot of friends but some true friend that really understand you and so as you understand them well~
life isn't going to be so fun all the time,
things that have passed might be a great memory for all of the people,
however it passed.

Learn to pick up the friendship again in a different method as we grow.
You might know it in another more interesting way.
once we sit by each other and having ice cream in our hand,
why couldn't one day we can have our own family and dinner together?

Here goes the ultimate way.....

2011-01-25T18:15:00.000-08:00

I am really frastuated with the old school code rendering method and the stupid maya batch rendering already since it takes like damn long to finish one frame....

and the things that make me feel so angry is that using manual way to render by clicking frame by frame rendering by my hand with my mouse is way more faster then the stupid pc system....

oh my god...
so now,
here goes the ultimate way for my rendering....

I have to click and render frame by frame around more than 5k frames.... good luck to me~

damn~

What a tired day....

2011-01-25T05:05:00.000-08:00

Chinese new year have been around the corner and i still haven't get the things i want....
So I have decided to go for a hunt for the items i wanted to buy today with my dear~
Well, she have something that she want also and that make up a tired day for both of us...

Have been shop at 3 different shopping complex around 7 hours ++ and it's so tiring...
i didn't know that i can walk for a long time since i didn't really exercise for a long time....
hmm, so i wonder does shopping consider as an exercise since girls always shop and stay slim...

Nothing much to say actually,
my first time been to the new opened shopping complex.....
hmm, nothing special also. Just that promoter inside were kinda friendly~
that's what i am happy for....because i think that's the only shop that have promoter smile to u and serve you among those shops that i entered for a whole day....

End of the day, what i got is a new goggles and a pair of shoes -.-
Fun~

Life is just about turning around and around

2011-01-08T08:32:00.001-08:00

Recently, I have been thinking alot and busying with stuff that i didn't used to be doing.
My life is going on into another stage, and i was wondering do i really ready for it.
I meant, i have been always ready for things but i am so doubt when come to making a decision.
U know, people always said that when u are alone, u can just be brave and head to ur destination.
But when come to a people that's full with linking around him,
it isn't an easy job to make a decision that make everybody happy and things will just ended up like A is manipulating B, however B is controlling C. In order to make C happy u have to choose the decision B which maybe the result in A incident will cause changes in situation B.
This isn't a complicated stuff to understand, and yet for other people it might be an easy question to be solve.
However for me, I have to think about the possibility to make all the things happen in the way i wish and adjust the balance within each decision i make based on the correct timing somemore...

Damn it's just too much for me to make my choice in a short time and a hard time that i not able to control the posibility for the happening i want.
Please, I just wish that i could manage to make myself happy......

And that's all i hope that i can do.

己所不欲，勿施于人

2010-12-11T08:08:00.000-08:00

己所不欲，勿施于人
is a phrase that describe the meaning of don't treat people in the way same as the way you don't like people to treat you ......
those who study chinese well should really understand this as in this is one of the chinese educated phrase that carry a good moral value behind to teach people how to manage the relationship between people.

and yet,
there're still lot of them out there that learn this but didn't know how to apply in their life....
which bring and causes alot of trouble for other people especially when come to working in a team or organizing something else.....
teamwork should always be considered as the first thing however in order to maintain a good team spirit it starts at the attitude of all the team members.....
just don't keep the mindset that :" argh.... my other teammates are going to settle this for me, so i no need to work that hard a...."
this sounded so damn stupid and yet not responsible......
when your teammates were working like hell in their position and you are the one who having fun out there.... Please do remember one thing that one day, this will come back to you....
don't think that you didn't finish your work nicely and clean...
your friends will always help you to clean up your shit.....
somehow when the final work was being done and show up on the screen,
people aren't blind, they can tell the different,
so until the time,
you are the one who is telling people that you are the not good one among the team....

so back to the phrase i mention earlier....
learn to be good in treating people so that people will respect you back....

人必自辱，而后人辱之....

难~

2010-12-10T06:43:00.001-08:00

做人难，真是难做人。。。。
有时候我还真希望懂得如何分身术。。。。
常听人们说，工作难啦，这不好，那不好啦。。。
其实，真正困难的，
确实平衡我们生活上的一切。。。
工作，与伴侣~

其实，说深点，那么的拼了命，为的。。。是什么~
你又知道吗？
也知道并不是这就是一切，
但，面对着这两方面，平衡，是一个很主观的一个词语~
世界上，就是有很多难以说出口的东西，听似无理，但用心去感觉，
或许并不是会被否定的事实。。。。
不是吗？

对于那不舒服的感觉，
我只能说声对不起~
也希望得到谅解与体谅，
因为，那很单纯的理由，也已经告诉了你。。。

每个人在面对一件事时，都会有自己的立场，
但是，想想背后那最大的原因，或许，大家都会体谅对方多一些~

2010-12-07T00:57:00.000-08:00

lol... so work in progress.... and this is so highpoly that my maya in my ultimate machine is still able to handle.... as you can see in the image. when you first import with wireframe it show out as the first image.... then when you go and select it become like the second image....

lol.... you can take a look on the final rendered image at the link below.
http://jexical.deviantart.com/art/Pilot-head-scultping-188780046

truth~

2010-12-04T14:46:00.000-08:00

其实，当你真正了解或是习惯了一个人时，
你会很开心，因为你感觉上是可以说会替别人着想了。。

但是，你可否想过，
当你太过的“懂”一个人时，
你会因为他的某些回答，使到你感觉不舒服，
因为当你太过了解之后，很自然的，他脸上的那层面具，已经对你没有用了。。
所以所谓的：“我不知道。。。你去猜吧。。。哈哈。。”之类的答案，
已经承认了你不想要知道的事实。。。

也许，事实是很残酷的，
人，也是不断在犯错，
惟有看开与接受，才是找到出口的方法。

Messy world...

2010-12-03T22:31:00.000-08:00

Have been so messy in all the things recently...
argh, it's just like going crazy....

Life without you

2010-11-26T03:54:00.000-08:00

I am so down now, sometimes, people said that, learning is a long life process, it does help when you fail to do something and there's always time.

But when you recall back the times that you fail in those passed years in your life, how many things that actually you have complete and make you really feel proud,
how would you grade yourself better then last time when you know you are not.

Well, i am going to take a test that i think not really have a high percentage to pass.
And yet i am taking too many things for my life,
should i really think about what i want for my life and make a decision to give up some.

Learn not to be greedy when you are not able to be,
I don't have enough time right now for those things i heading to.
Well, as i mention earlier, i am not ready now that doesn't meant i can't continue in the future.
just that times passed and it happen in different timing in my life.
But, who knows what will happen in the future.
I wish i can make a correct decision on it.

And dear, this is the third day you have went for travel.
Hope that you will be back soon.
I miss you.

life~

2010-11-23T05:19:00.001-08:00

life started to turn over as a shit when thing doesn't appears to be right in all the way.....
when things happened between people and there will be always some arguement...
and while the same things passed from one people to another one and it goes on, until the end it will be so much different that you can't even tell is it still the same....
and here's the problems appear....
we need to remain the same thing after it change and change from one people to another....

I accidently delete my files which contain some other updated information while copying files from others... and this make me have to redo all over the work.... this is where the shit start ....

damn~!

2010-11-11T23:36:00.000-08:00

damn damn damn~!!
can you all don't be so SOHAI ady....
keep making stupid stuff out to make other people feel trouble..... you think it's fun a?
come and do it yourself lar.....
god damn you~!

not everything that called special can't be do in a normal way....
over do it called SOHAI dy.....
somemore make problems to other people, not everyone free like you k~
please do use your god damn brain before you suggested something......

Today is a bad day

2010-11-05T08:25:00.000-07:00

Have been wake up early to go for a walk at the park with my dear this morning...
well, seem like today going to be a good day..
but that's it for the day~ the good moment.
went to so many places from 10 am till 7 pm only i reach home~ feeling tired and no mood for works dy...

something funny was that time at the PC expo...
watched almost half episod of avatar which is around 1 hour for the laptop that my brother bought to be send to the counter from the store room...
damn~ even the people who service us is not that polite and giving out muka busuk also~
i wonder how dare they treat customers in this way...
haiz~

So after reach home i was trying to do something that make me feel happier which is playing final fantasy 13...
after few hours i didn't feel happier but sad....
feel so sad that the game really disappoint me in some way.....
the visual is fine as it improve somehow~
but the gameplay and the balance of the game is really~ if there's a word that i can use to describe the game now was..... SHIT~

it give people shortcut to pass all the monster and aviod using lots of time on battles yet when the story continues and reach bosses, it always make it to become a hard fight.... and it's really hard.... so it make players replay the battle for 5 to 6 times and vomit blood infront of the console.... really gonna be insane after playing this game....

If there's a cheat code that can apply on the game, i think i definitely gonna use it.....
argh~!

New entry~

2010-10-25T17:29:00.000-07:00

another new entry for the warrior competition~!

hope that this time i might have a chance to get a price~ hahaha

These are the talented one~!

2010-10-03T04:04:00.000-07:00

The linked factors

2010-10-01T06:12:00.000-07:00

recently, there's just something i feel about myself...

当你知道得越来越多时，你也是变得越来越迷惑的时候了

this is what i feel when i started to learn more and more...
i feel so happy when i learn new software by myself...
i started to explo with many different kind of working ways...
however, after i have been through the process of learning...
at the end, looking back at the process, i still didn't able to achieve what i really looking for...

i did gain lot of new knowledge..
but what's the point of learning if u can't get what u what after learning..
currently it made me feel very frustrated after keep on doing the samething but still not good enough...
people always said that, it's not about the result...
it's about the process...
but when you not able to get the result you want,
what for you so happy that you have try so hard during the process...

Just the way you are~

2010-09-19T07:04:00.003-07:00

this is so nice....

Just the way you are~

2010-09-19T07:04:00.001-07:00

this is so nice....

GC not GSC

2010-09-16T20:36:00.000-07:00

It had been years since the day i entered TOA,
and now it's the last semester i am in...
I am glad to study in this college and feeling happy to learn what i am looking forward to...
although sometimes we get surprises....
even until the last semester...

Before this last semester started, i was shocked by my result that was so different from what i thought....
Then i was shock by this subject called GC ( Graduation Campaign )...
argh, we always being told that, life isn't always to be smooth as what we thought...
we can't just do whatever we like and don't care about what we don't like to do....

Sometimes i just wish that i could just focus on my final project and try to put more time in to
at least produce something that can show off what i have learn from the 3-years animation course i taken...
maybe it's a good chance to learn to do some event with friends and other students in the same batch with me...
hmm.... think about what you really want to do and manage your time..
some feedback get from lecturer.....

Hari Raya Genting Firework 2010~

2010-09-12T18:28:00.000-07:00

p/s : please kindly lower down ur speaker volume cos there're people sceaming all the way....

a panaroma shoot by using my phone system... there's a bit blur cos i not using tripod ...

oh shit~

2010-09-12T18:10:00.000-07:00

arghhh.....
what a wonderful morning...
inside my room is cold, outside my room is raining~
and i lie on my bed in a very relax post...
i had a dream~ everything is just nice..
suddenly i heard something..

it was my phone alarm,
it waked me up...
well, i am not late to college or what....
but it's weird to have stomachache in the morning after wake up ...
oh shit~!
my wonderful morning gone~!

This is nice~

2010-09-06T19:22:00.000-07:00

A movie that i watched with her~ my dear~
nice movie~ hehe... a good memory~

Life is all about problems solving~

2010-09-06T19:05:00.000-07:00

Work work work ~!
this is what we usually mention nowadays~ similiar format like the life brief candle ~
tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow~
yet, tomorrow we still have to work and deal with lots of problems..
once we solve a problem, we get the energy to continue and walk faster..
but somehow when we face a problems that we can't solve it...
we might just stop on the same spot or turn into another junction~

But i still believe in one thing which is problems lead us to grow~
to grow and learn to survive in this world that changing everyday....
deal with people and ownself~
for some special people, might have to deal with your computers and softwares...
sometimes they just will give you no responding and make you scream infront of it and bang your keyboard in pieces...
i guess it quite normal nowadays~

have to back to work now~
problems solving skill is important ~